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Thursday, 10 May 2012  I lost my words. My life is nothing right now. I want to die. For real. No one really cares for me. At home, I feel like I have to fight with my sisters just for a little love from my parents. One tiny mistake that I made can make them hate me even more. My life is worthless. I was born to be nothing. I'm not good at anything. I'm lazy, stupid and people hate me. People would never follow the saying "Never judge the book by its cover." They judge me by looking my appearance. I'm ugly and that's what people see. I'm ugly inside and outside. I hate how people looking me those disgusting eyes like I should not live and I should die. Now, I feel like I should die. No one will be sad if I die. Maybe the best day of their life if I die. To be honest, I don't know the purpose I'm living now. All things have been a pressure to me. I try to forget everything but the more I keep it to myself, I feel like someone putting a weigh on my shoulders and head. I'm tired. I wish he understands me but I'm just daydreaming. I thought he'll support me through all of these but he just keep hurting me. Do you know, how hard to pretend to be happy in front of your friends, classmates, family and people around you? The worst feeling is when someone close to you never try to help you with your problems. I guess people are just playing with me. Today, I cried in the class for 3 minutes. No one realised. That show I'm not exist in that class. I want to cry longer but I remembered my promise not to cry at school or at home. Just cry in my heart. I'm must be stupid. To like him until this moment. |
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