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22:50

Tuesday, 29 May 2012

Everyday, I wish the time would stop so I can cherish my happy moment and stay away from all those heartbreaking moment. Still, what I'm hoping for will never be real. It just simply a dream that can't never be true.

About what I am talking here?

I don't really know what is going on with my life. Seriously.

I don't have to fake around people, laughing and smiling. It just something that I do everyday but for now, I want to stop faking and be myself but I don't really know how to be myself. I'm stressed out here! I don't even know what to type because my feelings can't be describe through words.

Everything going to change soon and it is slowly changing.

My brother is not like he used to be. He's not my old brother. He changed. He's rude to me and he barely spends time with me. This is frustrating. The only person that made me happy for 15 years is gone. I miss the old you, brother.

Friends. I don't know who to trust. I love them as my friends but I can't trust anyone. I have the urge to cut myself but because of them, my family and him, I didn't. It seems like the only person that I can believe is Ee Ling but you'll never know whether they'll betrayed you or not.

It's hurts when your friends keep hurting you and you try to show them that you're okay with it. I miss Syahirah, Farhanah. I want to meet them again. My real best friends. I'm aware that my friends talk bad things about me but I can't show I'm weak. I've promised myself to be strong, ignore those things but it's really hard.

"It's only a movie. Leslie died because the story line said she must die. You watch it like a million time. I know you felt sorry for Jess but there's no need to cry."

I watch that movie so that I can cry. For real, I'm doing something to cry. I want someone to be at my side and tell me "It's okay to cry, K-Own. Let it out."

Another thing that I have to face is the fact that he'll be away from me. I'm trying to be alone without him, making me smile, every single day. It's very hard. SO HARD.

I hate the fact he always said that he'll be moving to Penang and.. do you know how hard for me to swallow each word and stop thinking about it? I just want to cherish our time together...

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All posts are owned and originally by Khairunnisa Asyiqin, the owner and the only writer of this blog. Photos are mostly from my own cameras unless stated so. I don't care what you do and you're welcomed to judge me anytime. Plus, your judgement is invalid in my life.

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Layout done by Nat alie. Images from here and here. Colors from Here. Do not remove the credits. Edited by the owner.

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smile! Hello. An engineer in making. An amateur writer that dreams to publish a book someday. A fifteen years old teenager. Life is like a roller coaster, you've got to enjoy it. I write what I want here and it's up to you whether to judge it or not. Readers	CHATBOX
This is REALITY 22:50 Tuesday, 29 May 2012 Everyday, I wish the time would stop so I can cherish my happy moment and stay away from all those heartbreaking moment. Still, what I'm hoping for will never be real. It just simply a dream that can't never be true. About what I am talking here? I don't really know what is going on with my life. Seriously. I don't have to fake around people, laughing and smiling. It just something that I do everyday but for now, I want to stop faking and be myself but I don't really know how to be myself. I'm stressed out here! I don't even know what to type because my feelings can't be describe through words. Everything going to change soon and it is slowly changing. My brother is not like he used to be. He's not my old brother. He changed. He's rude to me and he barely spends time with me. This is frustrating. The only person that made me happy for 15 years is gone. I miss the old you, brother. Friends. I don't know who to trust. I love them as my friends but I can't trust anyone. I have the urge to cut myself but because of them, my family and him, I didn't. It seems like the only person that I can believe is Ee Ling but you'll never know whether they'll betrayed you or not. It's hurts when your friends keep hurting you and you try to show them that you're okay with it. I miss Syahirah, Farhanah. I want to meet them again. My real best friends. I'm aware that my friends talk bad things about me but I can't show I'm weak. I've promised myself to be strong, ignore those things but it's really hard. "It's only a movie. Leslie died because the story line said she must die. You watch it like a million time. I know you felt sorry for Jess but there's no need to cry." I watch that movie so that I can cry. For real, I'm doing something to cry. I want someone to be at my side and tell me "It's okay to cry, K-Own. Let it out." Another thing that I have to face is the fact that he'll be away from me. I'm trying to be alone without him, making me smile, every single day. It's very hard. SO HARD. I hate the fact he always said that he'll be moving to Penang and.. do you know how hard for me to swallow each word and stop thinking about it? I just want to cherish our time together... Back to top?
DISCLAIMER All posts are owned and originally by Khairunnisa Asyiqin, the owner and the only writer of this blog. Photos are mostly from my own cameras unless stated so. I don't care what you do and you're welcomed to judge me anytime. Plus, your judgement is invalid in my life.	CREDITS Layout done by Nat alie. Images from here and here. Colors from Here. Do not remove the credits. Edited by the owner.